Dillon Francis ft. Totally Enormous Extinct Dinosaurs - Without You
I first heard this song at a time when I didn’t want to actually feel these lyrics. I felt them and I rejected them. I told him to turn it off when he played it. They foreshadowed what was about to come. He was about to move away, and I wasn’t prepared to let go yet. I couldn’t even grasp the concept of the frame of mind that’s described in this song. The frame of mind of being better off without someone who you were once completely in love with. I didn’t think that was something possible for me.
But it most certainly is. As time goes by, I realize how much better off I am. They say hindsight is 20/20, and whoever ‘they’ are, they’re right. I’m so thankful to be out of the darkness. I’m so thankful to be done with this person. I don’t regret being with them. There was a time when he was exactly what I needed. There was a time when he treated me pretty well. But I held on for too long. I allowed myself to be treated poorly in a blinded and desperate attempt to hold onto the times when everything was going well. I refused to accept that it wasn’t the way it was when I was most happy with him. And that crushed me. It still does a little bit from time to time, and I can’t lie and say I have no resentment towards him. Because I definitely do. I have a lot, in fact. But that’s fine with me. I can accept that I allowed him to treat me poorly. It is not all on him. But there are other aspects of it that I very much resent. I’m back to my old, independent self. It couldn’t feel any better. This entire semester has been miles better than last semester when I was still holding on. Letting go was very difficult for me. But I did it.
"Sometimes you have to get dirty before you can feel clean. Underneath the darkness there is light." - Madonna
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DID I SERIOUSLY JUST FIND THIS ON MY DASH.
He predicted the electronic movement, obviously.
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“She’s like my sister. I love her like a sister and I reckon she feels the same way about me. It’s always been like that….”
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My therapist asked me to create something “motivating” so I made these.
These are awesome! Really. You hit everything on the “list” and in a humorous way which makes it more awesome. Everything from taking a shower to remembering your meds when your depressed is a major challenge. All these things are things I struggle with when I hit a depressive episode. I’m sure they seem silly and small to those without a mood disorder, but they’re huge accomplishments to those of us who are sufferers and we should acknowledge that. tl;dr You rock, holyhotpantsbatman!
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“You can’t control what goes on around you, you can’t. But for me, I think there’s staples of these moments, that crazy moment where you think you’re indestructible. That moment where you find out that you’re not. And then that moment where all of a sudden you go, okay, I’m not indestructible but I’m gonna be okay. You have this life, and we all have these lives we live but it takes a bit of learning before you realize not every drama’s going to kill you and not every hard day has to lead to another one.”
— Andrew McMahon, Live From The El Rey Theatre
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